The Road not Taken

Life is a daring adventure or nothing...

I have to admit, I have never been this organized or driven towards a goal. Ever. I have never committed to a goal so wholeheartedly, nor have I wanted to do something so much I can taste it.

We all have and have had goals in our lives, big and small, that dream we have held so dear. We go through life chasing our dreams, keeping pace. Then, as time goes on we get distracted. We start looking around at the scenery and soon we have forgotten the chase.

That was my life. Caught up in the scenery, my dreams long forgotten, and one direction was as good as another. They all led to the same nowhere. Every once and a while, I would catch a glimpse of the dreams I had, like seeing the trees rustle as a dear jumps away into the safety of the foliage.

Eventually, the scenery bored me. It was nice, it was comfortable and stable, but I felt dead inside. It is time to chase my dream.

Recon 1

I thought I would be organized and prepared for a change, so I went to MEC and did a little reconnaissance. Holy Moses, it is going to cost a fortune to equip myself. This is going to take a lot more positive thinking.

Hrrmmmmph...

Ouch, headache.

Craziest. Idea. Ever.

I have decided since I am out of work, can't find any work, and have no real desire to work, I am going to close down shop and travel the world. Craziest damned thing I have ever thought of.

For a very long time I have wanted to travel and see the world, but I was bound by my commitments, more than that though, I just never made the effort. I realized recently, I haven't accomplished a lot in my life, no great stories, nothing really worth writing about. (Well, I did jump out of a perfectly good plane once and that is a pretty good story, I think so anyway.) Since I lost my job at the end of December, I have been struggling to find work, but more than that, I have been struggling to find a job I would actually like. It dawned on me, rather suddenly I might add, I should take this time and just travel. I went from thinking I should see some of Europe, to traveling all of Europe by motorcycle (okay, that is just hair-brained, I don't even know how to ride a motorcycle), to traveling everywhere around the world until I have gotten my fill. I don't know how I am going to do it, I don't know how I am going to pay for it, but isn't that part of the adventure?!

I have only told a couple people so far, but I am looking forward to the various reactions I will be getting from friends and family. It will be entertaining at the very least, but I doubt many people will actually be surprised. Maybe a little when they realize how long I plan to be gone, but we will see. I regret I will not be able to play Ultimate Frisbee this summer, I feel like I will be letting people down. Some how though, I think they might be able to find a way to carry on without me. Be strong! I will certainly miss everyone though.

I think this will be the best thing I will have ever done for myself in my life. Even the cat curled up in my lap isn't enough to keep me from adventuring. Almost, not quite.